Monday, August 23, 2010

It Has Been A Minute

I have not posted in a while.....

I am still alive and kicking. I am still around 230 lbs. I need to get my crap together and get back on track.

I had a conversation with my father today. He called complaining about how he has nothing and his health sucks because of  his addiction to prescription pain killers. When I told him I had warned him months before that he needed to get help, he tried to explain to me that I do not understand what it is like to be an addict. I do not have any idea what it is like to be addicted to drugs, but food has always been a driving force in my life.

I feel terrible that I am having to explain to my father what he should be doing to get his life together. It sucks that I know not to abuse drugs, but I can't keep my eating habits under control.

At church ( the pastor was talking about the verse in the Bible old school folks use to tell people my age we shouldn't have tattoos. You know the one that says your body is a temple. Well, I do not believe tattoos are wrong, but I have not treated my body like it is a temple.

I have some things that I need to take care of for sure.

I have the resources and the support system I need at home to be successful. I need to stop being lazy and get myself back on track.

Today I was humbled beyond words. God showed me no matter what situation is going on, that he is never going to leave me, even when I stray.

I am looking forward to getting squared away. It is going to be a hard, tough battle, but it is a battle worth fighting.


1 comment:

  1. I haven't given up on you! I know you can do it. You CAN do it. You don't have to do it all this minute- it can take a year. Or two. But it is worth doing and once you reach your goal- you will have shown your kids that sometimes the hard things in life are the best things. And that they CAN make changes in their life. Every kid needs that example.

    I'm sorry you feel helpless about your dad. Unfortunately, you can't fix it- he has to do that himself. You can just be an example of perserverance and determination, and success.