Today was not the brightest day of my weight loss journey. I was facing some hard truth about some things in my non-weight loss personal life that I would rather not have to face. I was angry, upset, hurt and frustrated. I did not have time to get to the gym to work off some steam, so instead of simply going for a walk or a run (which I did have time and space for) I chose to have a sweet biscuit from a fast food chicken place with my grilled chicken salad and diet Pepsi. Several hours later I was still pissed off and feeling sorry for my self. I decided the pity party could not go on with out some candy. And what party isn't complete without a cheeseburger? To top it all off, I went home and had dinner as well. A BBQ sandwich and potato chips.
I will tell you the truth about this, I am pissed off at myself that I did not try to get my frustration out in a more helpful manner. That food did not make me feel any better about what is going on in my life, it just made me feel worse about things. I could make a list of at least 5 things that I could have done instead of eating the unhealthy foods I chose to try and fill an emotion in my life.
I am going to learn from this mistake and move on. I cannot dwell on it for long or it will make matters worse. I know that I cannot let my emotions be the driving force of why I am eating something.