The above photo is of me crossing the finish line of the Octoberfest 2009 5K. As you can see my race time was terrible. At one point in my life I could run a mile in under 8 minutes and run 2 miles in under 15 minutes......

Today was a fairly good day overall. Minus the confusion of what is expected of me as a Student Teacher at Un-Said U. I had breakfast. Cherrios with reduced fat milk and some toast. Not too bad, but I am in no way an expert in nutrition, nor am I ready to become one. For lunch I had some leftover pasta alfredo. After lunch I had some time to kill, so I went for a brisk walk. For dinner I had a subway sub and a bag of potato chips. Not great, but not bad either. The only beverage of the day was WATER. Hence the 50 million trips the bathroom.

I jumped on the treadmill this evening and went to work. I set a goal to complete 30 minutes. I started out at a brisk walk working my way up to a slow steady jog. I felt pride and accomplishment because I set a goal and did not give up on myself. Normally I start feeling discomfort and I throw in the towel. I am proud that I met my goal.

On the other hand, I feel shame and guilt. 30 minutes on the treadmill is not too bad, but I only covered 2 miles in 30:05. No way am I happy with the distance covered. I feel shame and guilt for allowing myself to fall this far below my previous fitness level. At one point I loved to run and could run forever.

I know this is just a small step in the right direction. And I know the increases in my fitness level will not be as fast as I want them to be. I know that I am going to improve and make my way back to where I was in the past.

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SHEP